Psychiatriat

Since July, I tink I had changes a lot..got a weird attitude...
Laz time wen I study in sunway, I hate to take my dinner alone..i would rather starve than eating alone..
But now, certain of days I don like 2 mix v ppl...I would rather eat alone..coz of lazy to talk 2 any1..even wen I m out v my frenz, I would sit down der quietly...wont talk muj..wad da hell had happened to me?
Become autistic? Should I go 2 a psychiatrist?

When going to work, can talk one whole day, but suddenly can bcome damn quiet without talking 2 any1...seems like some pressures which is indescribable.. da moment I din talk, I would sit down while doing my works, my mind will keep think lots of thing...
Dunno y keep think damn muj..every morning woke up, I will start 2 think until I reach office..even I bathed or drive..

Sumtimes think dat y m I so silly? Did smth which ppl not appreciate at all?
Y m I going 2 waste so muj time?
Humans like to take things for granted. Perhaps become a selfish person is da only way to survive in dis world..o else in da end, will alwiz be da loser.

Wreckage

Nothing is fair in dis world...

The more u sacrifice, the more u r hurt & when u feel u give ur best it all seems not enough until such time u have no choice but to give up....

Tried hard 2 maintained it but seems like worthless..

There is still a wall between us..

Now i finally believe dis phrase..

To build a frenship, it takes years...but to destroy it, juz take a few seconds..

No matter how hard 2 salvage it, still no use..der is still a wreckage at der...cant be remove permanently!!!

Disappointed

You are one of the person who i care and cherish the most.

I just wanna know u better. Rack up my brain in order to pleased you.

But in the end, i get scolded for nothing.

Really totally upset + angry + disappointed!!

IF i really had disturbed you, or you think that i am DAMN irritating, you can speak frankly with me instead of raising your voices at me!!

I know I am just an insignificant person in your life.

I had think one whole night..had figured out where i stand.

I said a lot of things to you. You might think that i am bullshitting with you.

But i can swear to heaven and earth, all da things i said or sms, is true.

Sincerely from bottom of my heart. Not a prank or just want to make you happy.

Whether to trust or not, decision lies on your hands. It's depends on how you think and look at me!!

Perhaps..right from the begining, i should not across the border line.

Should maintained the relationship which on the very first day i know you instead of getting closer!!

But now, everything too late!!

I am the one who caused all these things.

Friday night, one whole night totally can't slp even a wink.

All the things you scolded me, keep flashing in my mind.

I don't know monday how am i going to react nor start a conversation with you!!